my new book

soo i never did finish the wicked book.  haha

i was almost done but then i saw the play again and its so different it got me mad. and i just dont want to read it anymore because it just got dumb and hard to understand

so my new books i am going to read this summer are the Harry Potter books. 

i read the first one long ago. so now i am started with the second book. The Chamber Of Secrets.

i believe i started it once before but i just never finished like every other book i try to read. i am actually going to do this though haha. i want to read all 7.

oh yes. and i am pretty much over summer right now. its just getting old and the same stuff is happening haha. i really beileve every summer just repeats itself. im so over it its not even funny. for some reason i really wish i were in school right now. i need something to do with my life. and i am so excited for the new school year. it is going to be amazing. despite who is in it or not. none of that is going to bother me. i made peace with the people i needed to. and wanted to. things happen for a reason. and im leaving it that way. yeah i miss alot of people but i mean i guess this was meant to happen? who know's.  i just can't wait to graduate. yeah its not for a year but still. once the school year starts it is going to go by so fast. i can't wait.

summer two thousand and eight

the beginning of summer started out fine.

it gave me a reason to trust that it would be okay.

i got past the first two weeks.

then after that everything went a little crazy.

to much drama. i am too young for it. i need to just live my life despite the down falls. i only have one more year of high school. i need to stop letting things get to me. i need to not care. 

one more year and i am gone. gone from the lying, backstabbing, jealousy, cheating, and stupid little bullshit fights. its time to get serious. i am done wasting my time on stuff like this. 

i am over it. i forgive you. 

good day :] 

ooh yeah im reading a book which is my summer goal ======>

Trust..

Over the past two years i have grown more and more aware of my surroundings. I went through a hard time before high school. the hardest ever for me.. i gave something up and i should have waited. i gave something up that can never be given back.. and the worst of all is i gave it to the wrong person. Someone who didn't care. i was very young.. i still am.. and it still hurts to think how  i would do that to myself.. 

most of who i am today. and how i think today was built up around my experiences when i was younger. it brought upon my jealousy and my trust issues. 

The hardest Obstacle i go through today would definitely be my clash with trust. i don't know who to trust anymore. my family is number one. and i definitely have my trust in them. but when it goes with my friends. i just cant do it. i try so hard. but its unbelievable how fast someone can turn on you. i have so much inside of me. stuff i want to led be heard. so many little secrets about myself..

but for some reason.

something is holding me back...