summer two thousand and eight

the beginning of summer started out fine.

it gave me a reason to trust that it would be okay.

i got past the first two weeks.

then after that everything went a little crazy.

to much drama. i am too young for it. i need to just live my life despite the down falls. i only have one more year of high school. i need to stop letting things get to me. i need to not care. 

one more year and i am gone. gone from the lying, backstabbing, jealousy, cheating, and stupid little bullshit fights. its time to get serious. i am done wasting my time on stuff like this. 

i am over it. i forgive you. 

good day :] 

ooh yeah im reading a book which is my summer goal ======>

Trust..

Over the past two years i have grown more and more aware of my surroundings. I went through a hard time before high school. the hardest ever for me.. i gave something up and i should have waited. i gave something up that can never be given back.. and the worst of all is i gave it to the wrong person. Someone who didn't care. i was very young.. i still am.. and it still hurts to think how  i would do that to myself.. 

most of who i am today. and how i think today was built up around my experiences when i was younger. it brought upon my jealousy and my trust issues. 

The hardest Obstacle i go through today would definitely be my clash with trust. i don't know who to trust anymore. my family is number one. and i definitely have my trust in them. but when it goes with my friends. i just cant do it. i try so hard. but its unbelievable how fast someone can turn on you. i have so much inside of me. stuff i want to led be heard. so many little secrets about myself..

but for some reason.

something is holding me back...