Trust..

Over the past two years i have grown more and more aware of my surroundings. I went through a hard time before high school. the hardest ever for me.. i gave something up and i should have waited. i gave something up that can never be given back.. and the worst of all is i gave it to the wrong person. Someone who didn't care. i was very young.. i still am.. and it still hurts to think how  i would do that to myself.. 

most of who i am today. and how i think today was built up around my experiences when i was younger. it brought upon my jealousy and my trust issues. 

The hardest Obstacle i go through today would definitely be my clash with trust. i don't know who to trust anymore. my family is number one. and i definitely have my trust in them. but when it goes with my friends. i just cant do it. i try so hard. but its unbelievable how fast someone can turn on you. i have so much inside of me. stuff i want to led be heard. so many little secrets about myself..

but for some reason.

something is holding me back...